Monday, April 03, 2006

well, i'm glad that i make this choice. it isnt a easy one to decide. but still, i dont want to continue. i feel so stress. i feel like the water is reaching my nose and i'm struggling to cattch my breath. if you know what i mean. not only this actully, i've been feeling this way almost towards everything in my life. everything seems like a struggle to me.

i realised that i cant control myself. i give in too much. GOD. i hate my life. i've stuck in this juction for wayy too long. when can i get out of here. when will i be able to change? i'm sick and tired of having passion that fate off after a couple of days.

everytime i see my results dropping. i'm so scared. i'm about to break down. but why is it that i dont see myself studying hard?? why am i still wasting my life away?? what happen to nicole? i dont know.

i have so many things so clear. and it's making my head explode. i feel really stress. SO STRESS THAT I WAN TO BREAK DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE MY LIFE!!!
I HATE MYSELF!!
I HATE THE DEVIL WITHIN!!!!
I HATE MY WEAKNESS!!
I HATE IT WHEN I CANT CONTROL MYSELF!!!

nicole farted at
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